And I’ve definitely felt apathy or inertia towards certain things in the past.
And it comes much more naturally to keep my options open rather than to commit. So, today, I am making a concerted effort to commit to a relationship, to give it a shot and to work through my feelings every time I feel pulled in the opposite direction. Jumping ship at the first sign of a problem would be counterproductive.
It’d be like moving countries in search of happiness, only to find you take your unhappy self with you – known as ‘doing a geographical’.
I offered you a chance to surprise me, because I knew if I didn’t, I would always wonder what might have been, if I had only been brave enough to take a risk. I don’t regret knowing you, taking a chance on you and letting you into my world.
The worst feeling is wondering what might have been, and as a part of my commitment to live fully and ride the waves as they come, I am embracing any opportunity that opens my heart.
I would have willingly gotten on the roller-coaster that is you and rode it until it flew off the rails. This is not the first time I’ve been offered a ticket to a free emotional roller-coaster ride, but now I see clearly that the ride is never worth the fall.